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IV. The Satisfaction
Out of non-being, being is born;X. Shadow and Echo and Jade
out of silence,
a writer produces a song.
When the mind is caged and separate,XI. Five Criteria
the spirit wanders
and nothing is controlled.
The poet calls and callsXIII. The Masterpiece
into the void,
but nothing answers.
Wanting every word to sing.I've been reading a lot of books about writing lately, as that is the next step for me in this dissertation process. The ULTIMATE step! Actually WRITING the damn thing.
every writer worries:
nothing is every perfected;
no poet can afford to become complacent.
I have filled myself for YEARS with books and more books and ideas and obsessions -- underlining things, making notes, connections, following threads -- and now it is finally time to step into the wild frontier of actually putting forth my OWN thoughts, ideas, and articulating MY philosophy on the topic that has been the recurring theme in my life, art, and thinking. It's an exciting time to be in the mind of Juli Crockett. And terrifying. Incredibly terrifying.
It is a damn good thing that I recently started meditating regularly. Not only does the journey into effortlessness and emptiness have EVERYTHING to do with my dissertation on NOTHING... the practice itself helps to keep me grounded as I venture deep into the void. Like the 'ol Zen kōan about walking in a circle in both directions simultaneously:
Here I amn't, grounded in groundlessness.